left with 1 more test this week! tmr will be having chemistry test. I haven study yet... haiz... Today's computing test was still alright. Luckily my tutor asked us to use things from the beginning of chapter 9 - user define function. I think I can only understand till there. That's my limit!! How am I supposed to do my exam paper? there are still lotsa things at the back - GLUT, Numeric Arrays, Input/Output. sob sob sob.... I dun wanna retake this module.. someone please help me!

Yeterday's test was the worst! I failed my psychology test AGAIN!! sob sob... I spent so much time studying for it and I still fail.. I did worse than the previous time.. ='( Spent the whole of my saturday studying for it, spent half of my sunday studying for it, stayed up late at night last week to study for it. Gave it my upmost priority among all the 4 tests I had this week. But guess it's the worst that I've done.. sad sad sad... yes i'm real disappointed bout it, bout myself. My wish of taking it as a minor is doomed. Unless I do real well for my exams. There are lotsa things to memorise. My mind has got limits, how to memorise so many psychologists' names and what experiments they did and also what evaluation they came up with? It juz reminds me of history! I felt real stupid when I saw my grades yesterday. I've never felt so stupid in my life. I've now experienced how people felt when they studied so hard but still couldn't make it for exams. sob sob.. The feeling really sucks! I teared while walking to the bus stop to wait for daddy to pick me. Dear called me and I can't even recognise his voice. I teared even harder in dad's car. Told him I failed my test and he said it's ok cos it's not my core module. Yes, it's not my core module. This result wun affect my degree in future, but I wan to take it as a minor! sobz... Being in NTU for 2 semesters I can really see my weakness! I think I can't perform well for subjects that requires lotsa readings. I think I've made the right choice to be in engineering. Cos I think i can do much better in maths and science related subjects (except physics. haa!). Last semester was Econs. I was really struggling for that subject. But luckily I din do that badly-B. This semester is "Women in a Globalised World" and "Psychology".

exams are just around the corner. I better buck up!

oh ya, I shall talk bout what happened on Monday. Ya, I think most people felt the tremble at night cos of the earthquake at North Sumatra. I fell asleep while studying. Then daddy called me. He asked me "did anything happened just now?" On hearing that, I felt real scared. Din know what he meant. I kept turning my head to look around my room. Then I asked "what do you mean?" Then he asked me to look out of my window. There are lotsa ppl crowding downstairs. Then daddy say they said that they felt the building shaking. At first I thought it's only my block (cos if it is, then there might be something wrong with our building's structure). But dad said no, people from other blocks felt it too. After that the security guard said if we really felt it, it's better for us to go down. I think i'm really a pig la.. hahaa... daddy switched on the TV to channel news asia, then we realised it's actually an earthquake at north sumatra with a ritcher scale of bout 8.2...... scary!

okok, a very long entry... better go and study for chemistry!