I'm a little bored now... Din go to school today.. It's material Science lecture.. The pathetic 1 hour lecture.. My travelling time is 4 times of this.. Opportunity cost of not going to school is high? (haa~ my econs.. no la, juz trying to apply to my life.. hurhurr... dun even know if i've used it correctly.. gee..) So, I chose not to go (though dad sorta encouraged me to go). I can read the text book myself.. I mean sometimes we can't understand what this (erm, dunno where is he from, China?Hong kong?)lecturer is explaining... And sometimes, I dun even know what word he is pronouncing since he pronounces words different from us..

A few days ago, I got to know bout her.. She still likes her ex-bf.. But, why did she initiate the break up in the 1st place? She went to the pyschaitrist again... Met her yesterday, she looked moody.. I mean I think for the past few weeks she has been behaving this way... She always look so tired and sad.. When I talk to her I felt as though she dun wanna talk to me?! Hope she's fine and will get well soon... I mean hope she'll be back to her usual self...

Anyway, I think I'm not very me these few days again.. Pls dun ask me why, cos I myself dunno why.. But I juz felt that I'm so different now.. The way I behave the way I treat the ppl around me.. I feel depressed, but I dunno why.. I think I'm weird.. I [think] dear think that I'm different too.. Maybe cos last week is my holidays and i've think too much during this period of time? Not that I've got nothing for me to do during my holidays, but, I'm juz so lazy to study, to do my reports, to do my tutorials.. Was taking my own sweet time doing all these stuffs... That goes to explain why I need to stay at home for almost the whole of my holidays... =(

Shitx... I've got my physics test tmr.. Or rather it's my CA.. 5 MCQs questions.. Though they are MCQs, we hafta show full workings... I haven finished studying... I'm left with 1 more chapter.. Chapter 12... Though it's only 1 more chapter, but this set of notes is really thick.. And to tell the truth, even though i've studied for it, it does not mean that I can attempt those questions tmr?! It doesn't mean that I'll know how to solve them!! This is especially true for physics.. I've realised this since JC?? I'm such a failure, isn't it?

My ulcers are coming out again.. I hate it man!! Last week I had 2.. After they have recovered, more pop out.. Now I've got 3 in my mouth.. though 1 is extremely small.. Hopefully it doesn't grow bigger in the days to come... I've got this problem since sec 4 prelims lo... During that period of time I've gotten this virus thingy - had red spots in my mouth... Doctor said it's cos I'm stressed and I haven got enough sleep... My body immune system was weak that time, so the virus attacked me.. wth... Then doctor said that this thingy would come again when I'm stressed... After this incident, i always have ulcers in my mouth... especially during exam periods and stuffs... argh... This is bad!! But even when I go to doctors, they'll juz give me ulcer gel to apply... Mummy asked me to drink honey...

Ok, I think I better get back to my physics... If not, tonight dun need to sleep le.. And I haven finished my report.. If I managed to finish studying my physics later, I'll try to finish it up at night.. But I think chances are quite slim? gee...

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